November 21

Well, here we are again. It’s 8:30 Sunday night and I am waiting till the Monday morning drive to the hospital for another surgery. It’s been interesting this time. In some ways it has been rather low key, everyone says it’s not a big deal including the doctor. However, when it is not your body, that is an easy thing to say. Once again, we’re looking at an anesthetic and they will be cutting, chipping, drilling, and rearranging blood vessels inside my head. After the surgery for a week there will be difficulty breathing because my nose will be all packed up.

For two weeks I have not taken any supplements or significant pain medicine. For the first two days or so I didn’t notice it I guess there was residual stuff in my system. More recently it’s been very noticeable specially in my knees and other joints. But I am really enjoying living. Yes, there are limitations because of pain; yes, there are frustrations as my memory is still not as sharp as I wish it was. But Karen, my family, renewed contacts with Muslim friends, and my students are a source of joy and reciprocated love. I love Karen so much and desire a few more years to care for and cherish her. It’s wonderful to see the growth and potential of my children and grandchildren and it would be a joy to continue to be a part of their lives. Even though my 5th 6th and 7th grader students are at times really frustrating, I have come to love them and consider it a privilege to be a part of their maturing and spiritual formation. Plus, Josh just bought Me 2 1/2 pounds of bacon and I’m the only one in the house who eats it.

I am still looking forward to Heaven. There will be reunions, an end to difficulties, and most important being in the presence of the Lord and getting a small inkling of His purposes while basking in His love. But I’ve come to think that Heaven is forever and I am sort of willing to put that on hold for a few more years of living for Him on Earth.

Ultimately, I know that it’s not up to me and I shall be quite content wherever I wake up tomorrow.